Mother's Day.

Mother's Day always gives me much to think about. It sends me back in time thinking about my mom and how good she was at mothering. Nurturing, patience, love, selfless, organized. She was all of those things. Not to mention she was super good at all the basics too - you know, cooking, cleaning, etc. I'm pretty sure so much of why I wanted to be a mom more than anything else in this world had a whole lot to do with how good she was at the whole mothering thing. It inspired me. It came so natural to her. It was who she was. I wanted to be like her. I often think of her example and then check to see how I am measuring up. I fall short in lots of areas, but I'm trying. And I do love it. Man do I ever love being a momma. I am the first to admit that my dreams of motherhood were full of me and babies. Sometimes toddlers. But always babies. school-age kids - not so much. But now that is where my real life has taken me. My youngest is 4 and my oldest is 11. We are clearly in school-age mode. I am out of my element. Out of what my mind had all planned out. Good thing my heart does a decent job of guiding me. I find myself depending lots on that heart of mine to help me be the mom that I need to be. The mom that my amazing kids deserve. And I think I'm starting to get it. Slowly. And, I really am enjoying the ride.....well, on most days!

mother's day pictures...may 9, 2010